Ice Cream for Lunch
Written by Edward Kampanowski
It was hot as hell and time for lunch. We head for the window table, but the window table is taken. The next table has no window view. It’s nothing but concrete and plaster and a banner for Bethany's senior ball. Bethany’s banner dangles, flaking glitter on the floor, glitter on the table, glitter on the tanned arms and legs. Bethany sits in front of the window and smears mayo on whitebread.
Matty Lavene walks into the cafeteria all on his own. Since he shit all over the bathroom floor a year ago everything he did had to be assisted. No one knew why he shit all over floor right next to the toilet. Since he can't talk, no one found out.
Since the incident, aids felt it was best to involve him with others. For the year he was seated at the window with us. He was more or less a furnishing but sometimes he did laugh. Everytime a bird smacked into the window.
Apparently Matty was now free to seat himself. Matty sees the window and heads for Bethany. He probably hasn't heard the rumors. Or maybe Matty doesn't care about the rumors. Or maybe Matty hoped the rumors were true. That if she could be forgiven and sit by the window, maybe he was forgiven too and finally free again. Maybe Matty thinks a lot of things.
He tries to sneak himself into the seat next to Bethany. She slides halfway into the open spot. Matt stops. He looks to the next open spot and a blonde girl slides halfway over. Matty stops again. He can’t figure it out. No one can. So much room and no where to sit. There is another blonde, more dirty than blonde. Her hair drags on the table. Matt tries to squeeze himself into that spot next. He bends down and just about gets a leg in there when the dirty one slides over into him. Matty falls backwards. His head bounces off the floor like a watermelon. She looks away and keeps asking what happened? What Happened? What happened? I don't know what happened!
His lunch spills out onto the floor. A barrel of yogurt rolls under the table. Nobody stops it.
A kid next to me says something about the rumors. Rumors about the Bethany and the party.
Bethany is careful not to flinch. Matty wheezes behind her. Maybe if she pretends he’s not there, he'll go away. She looks around for someone to do something. What will the people think...Matty sitting down next to her, gazing out the window together, sharing lunches, meeting in the bathroom to do what they do.
Bethany sweats out a conversation, maybe about her weekend. Maybe about the party. Maybe about the shots. About downing shot after shot. Laughing and laughing. Smoking bummed cigarettes. Balling over how much she loved everyone there. Crying over all cruel things of the world. Maybe they talk about her falling to the ground. Losing control of all bodily function. About being rolled over. The blondes gasping, laughing even about the the smell of shit running from Bethany's new lilac skirt. Or maybe they don't talk about any of it.
Bethany never flinches there at the table. All eyes are on Matty and Matt’s eyes on Bethany. Matt didn’t know about Bethany. But everyone else does. I sit under the banner and Matty flounders. Bethany chews her bread. Two aides get up from their lunch. They clinch Matt and carry him off. Matt thrashes and kicks all eighty pounds through the isles and out the door.
***
The next day at lunch, we file into the cafeteria. The window table is open again. Bethany and the blonde and the dirty one are at the head of the cafeteria selling tickets for prom. There is a long line of prom goers, and in the line there are still a few giggles and points towards the front table where Bethany is sitting. But for the most part, she is still sitting high and pretty.
Matty Lavene escorted into the cafeteria by his aids. He is seated with us by the window. He’s wearing a backwards hat, a Naval officer's hat with all sorts of decorative military pins across it, the kind someone important and powerful, strong and decisive must have earned. Maybe his dad had given it to him.
Matty comes back to us, at the window table and sits down and opens his soda and it sprays a bit. Another laughs and Matty stares out the window. A lawnmower rides by.
A few minutes later a woman approaches the table. The woman is tall and slender with long brown hair. She’s wearing a tan suit with white sneakers. She takes a seat next to Matt. The woman introduces herself as Marianne Lavene.
It’s special ed parent day, she explains. She wants to meet his friends before the school year ends, all the guys who knew him best. Matt stares out the window and the grounds keeper rolls. Woodchips shoot against the window.
Marianna takes a seat.
Really though, she says, I just wanted to thank you all for keeping an eye on him all year. It was very kind.
I keep my eyes on the table. It is made of some sort synthetic polyurethane blend made to look like birch. I notice this for the first time.
I’m very thankful that you guys helped him out, she says.
We all nod our heads.
Unfortunately, Marianne says, after yesterday’s incident, his father and I are not so sure it’s a good idea for Matty to go to the senior ball.
At the front table Bethany has just sold two more tickets to another couple. She is smiling widely, showing two rows of perfect teeth. Marianne Lavene looks at Bethany puzzled. Puzzled by how Bethany got away with it and Matty didn't.
Marianne looks at Matty
We’ll have a fun pizza night at home, she says.
One by one she shakes our hands. She asks what kind of ice cream we all like. When she gets to my name I shake her hand. I tell her I like chocolate ice cream. She gets up and when she has a whole box of ice cream cones.
It's hot as well and heat waves quiver off the window sill. Ice cream drips down my fingers and all over the table.
Don't Worry Little Man
Written by Alex Feeman
It was a brutally hot summer afternoon in any suburban sprawl America. A young man parked his car and walked into a brick building nicely isolated from the other businesses by several parking lots.
"I'm looking for a heavy duty snare stand, the last one I had broke."
The young man, tall and thin, knew where the pieces were at. He knew that the salesman was going to try and sell him some exorbitantly overpriced brand name piece of equipment.
(This is ridiculous. I'm not even buying the instrument and I'm going to lay down a few hours' work.)
You see, he only told the clerk what he was looking for because he wanted to have a conversation. There are two people who work at the mid-sized music store. I call it mid-sized because while it certainly isn't the music mega-store, where friendly sales associates assist customers in making their purchases, it also isn't the mom and pop shop where your friend cuts you a deal on every last thing you buy, from a Fender Stratocaster all the way down to a handful of Dunlop picks. It isn't somewhere between either; it is one of the two stores, depending on which of the two people are working.
(Where is Sean? I know he works on Wednesdays. I want to know how Olivia is doing, and I'm sure he'd be glad to see me.)
Today, the lanky bastard dealt with the friendly sales associate. Although his friend wasn't working, the tall, thin man was stuck in the assumption that he was.
"My friend was pounding on my drums and broke the snare stand."
"Why isn't he buying the new one?"
"He's doing me a huge favor by just playing the drums."
(I kept rambling on about my pathetic band. He doesn't care about this.)
After making eyes at the snare stands costing well over fifty dollars, the lanky bastard settled on a fine heavy-duty unit coming in at just $20.99.
(How hard do people hit the snare drum? Half of these stands weigh ten pounds.)
"My card isn't swiping, is it?"
"...I need another form of payment..."
"Really?"
"No."
They both muffled laughs.
"Take care."
"See you later."
Back in the devastating heat of the angry summer sunlight, the tall young man wiped the sweat off of his forehead and lowered the windows of his car before getting in. He threw the hunk of metal he just bought in the backseat, along with the paper receipt.
(The receipt is going to fly out of the window, but I don't care.)
He turned on the car and drove out of the parking lot. His mind raced between the stimulation of the four young women in the car in front of him and the desolution of his job. By the next stoplight, the Honda filled with happy girls had turned left and the tall young man was left to his own devices.
(People say they hate the job but love the people. I can't say that. I can almost say the opposite. I love the job, until there are people involved. It's easy. I love some of the people, but certainly not enough to warrant "loving the people.")
As he was lost in thought, he drove past two young boys operating a lemonade stand. $.25 for a cup of lemonade.
(I'm a nice person. I'm a good person. It's not my fault that I can't say "I love the people," is it? I try to love the people. I do love a lot of the people. The people, though? Frankly, I can't stand a lot of the people.)
The young man, even on autopilot, turned before he ought to. He was circling the block.
(The people I don't care for don't know that I don't care for them. I'm nice to them. I ask them about their days, I become interested. I couldn't care less. I don't care. I do the same with the people I love, except it feels real. It is real. These are my friends, but how can they tell?)
The young man pulled his car over to the curb and left it running.
(How does Sean know he's my friend? I'm just as friendly with the sales associate as I am with him. I indicate the same amount of interest.)
"Hey there buddy, I see you're selling drinks!"
"Yes."
"It's a great day to be doing this, it's really hot."
"Yes."
"Let me get a lemonade."
"Okay."
The small boy, about eight years old, opened a small cooler and grabbed a pitcher of lemonade. He put a single ice cube in a small styrofoam cup, and poured the cup full of lemonade.
"Have you sold a lot of drinks today?"
"No, only one so far."
The boy paused.
"But we just started."
(Don't worry little man, you have nothing to be ashamed of.)
"It's a hot day, I'm sure you'll sell some more."
The little boy was still busy filling the cup.
"Are you ready for summer and school to be over?"
"Yes. We only have one more full day and two half days."
The boy's father walked up to the front door of the house to watch his son making his first sell of the afternoon. From behind the glass door, he beamed a smile at the young man, who returned it.
(I am a good person.)
The young boy and young man exchanged the cup of lemonade with one set of hands and a quarter with the other set of hands.
"Thank you!"
"You're welcome."
"Have a nice day, I hope you sell a lot of lemonade!"
"Thank you."
The young man got back in his running car and drove away, waving goodbye to his new young friend as he left. Although he had been both physically and mentally exhausted from his day's work under the tireless sun, a sip of the cold lemonade brought peace to the young man's mind. He was content as he casually finished his commute home.
(This is not a bad world.)
The receipt did not blow out of the car window as anticipated, but rather got caught up in a wind current and blew around the back seat of the car during the drive home. The young man parked his car at his house, and the receipt gently came to rest in the back seat. As the receipt calmly lay on the cloth, it reminded the young man of himself. Try as it might have, the receipt ultimately stayed where it was put by a force stronger than itself; the tall, thin man. Tired after all of it's blowing around, it lay peacefully in the setting afternoon sunlight.
The young man walked into his house, and, his continued feeling of contentedness having imbibed him with drowsiness, he took a nap.
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